Personal confession: These times have gotten me turned upside down. The first three weeks of shelter-in-place has been a dumpster fire for me.
The first week included shutting down the office, backing up all the computers and storing them in the large office safe, reconciling the office books, and sending everyone home.
The second week had me scrambling and trying to set up the kid’s online learning situation and being a miserable mess needlessly checking social media. I spent hours communicating with friends via WhatsApp and whatever messaging platforms. We’re trying to reassure each other and attempting to look cool and confident while melting down inside like a big pile of doggy mess,
In the third week, I finally mustered up the courage to blow up my OmniFocus projects and tasks and committed to a complete
Mind Sweep and Purge. Many tasks have been assigned my
After COVID tag. Current projects have been shuffled into my Someday folder or altogether deleted. Then I start up my new projects that suddenly gained importance in life now.
I thought I would have time to do everything now that I’m a stay-at-home dad. But that didn’t happen. I’ve seen blog posts tell me to accept the situation and just let the feelings run through. But I thought I was supposed to be the stoic, heroic figure and soldier on. Meh… My emotions run wide and deep. I’m glad I was able to get past the first couple of weeks. My yard work is still unattended, my writing ideas have stewed in my Ulysses app for a while. All the dreams of full speed ahead on my projects have blown right by me. And I think I’m OK with that. Reading this WIRED article might give me the permission to forgive myself for not being as productive as I thought it should be.
I’d like to say I’m the most productive person now that I have all this time for my work. But that’s not the truth. My identity was wrapped around my work and all the productive results I’ve created at work. Now, I’m slowly finding my new identity once again in a new world. I’ve never been fired from a job but I think I know what it feels like now. I’ve resigned from a job to chase new dreams. Maybe I’m resigning from my pre-COVID-19 life and striking out on my own once again? I dunno. But I think I’m starting finally feel liberated and looking for opportunities to find my new identity.
How has everyone done in this new world? Did your life turn topsy-turvy in the last month? Have you re-oriented yourself with a Mind Sweep to clear off all your current work? Have you found your new North Star yet?
I think I found the general direction of my North Star after getting disoriented in the last 30 days. I’m still calibrating it but I’m finally setting course in a new world. My intentions are clear now. I’m moving forward.
Hopefully you’ve been able to get a clear mind and clear heart to keep moving forward!
P.S. I’m looking forward to listening to the new ERW podcast. Can’t wait!